Begin Again

Her heart stopped.
Just for a moment,
she couldn’t feel it beating.
Ice ran through her veins.
She knew what this
was in an instant.

Her eyes closed and
Images of him flooded
Her mind.
It all felt real;

She knew she couldn’t trust it.
She knew that when she opened
Her eyes, he wouldn’t be there.
So she kept them closed
A little longer.

She knew she wouldn’t feel his touch on her skin.
Or his lips on her neck.
She wouldn’t feel his
Hands around her waist
Or his voice in her ears.
So she kept her eyes closed
A little longer.

She remembered how he laughed.
She remembered how he cried.
She remembered how he said
Her name when he came.
She remembered it all.
So she kept her eyes closed
A little longer.

She could still smell his cologne
On her sheets.
She could see his face in her
Mirror.
He was everywhere she went.
He was in everything that she did.
And then it hit her like a ton of bricks.
So she opened her eyes
And could finally see again.

The life she lived with him
It wasn’t real.
It wasn’t a fairytale.
Their life was made
Of broken pieces of glass.
Melted and reshaped,
Glued together into
some semblance of love.

It wasn’t real,
And she knew it.

Her heart started beating
Again.
She felt the blood rush
Back to her face.
She knew what this was
in an instant.

It was a momentary glitch.
A flashback of a faded past.
Of Promises not kept
And tears constantly shed.

But things were different now.
Her heart was in a different place.
And he was gone.
She leaned her head back
Against the wall and sighed.
“It’s over now,” she whispered.

It’s over now, my love.
It’s time to begin again.

~KVP
Art: Skullheadz