In my sorrow
And my shame,
I’ve shut myself off
From the world.
Locked in an endless
Loop of sadness.
Trying to break free.
But I spied a glimmer of Hope
In the roof of my self-imposed prison.
A tiny light, threatening to break through.
I heard its voice
Calling my name.
I felt my blood react
To the sound.
Like a Siren calling out to lost Sailors,
I will follow it to freedom.
Hope will save me today.
But tonight, I’ll jail myself
With my loneliness
And fear.
Hide in my tears and pain.
Because it’s what I’ve always done,
When life becomes too overwhelming.
When life becomes too large to control.
I fritter away into the shadows.
Unable to share joy with others.
But when the night comes
And my chest is sore from crying,
I’ll hear the song again.
I’ll look up and Hope will be there.
Willing me to follow her.
Beckoning me to embrace what may come.
I’ll follow Hope out of my cell tonight.
She will light my path.
Maybe this time, will be different.
Perhaps this time, I will be different.
This time I will let Hope bring me home.

Kim V. Poetry

Can’t sleep.
Aimless thoughts racking my brain.
My enemy is keeping me awake again.
My mind runs amok in the earliest hours of the morning.
Lying to me.
Replaying every past mistake or missed opportunity.
She makes me question myself.
She makes me second guess everything.
Tonight I won’t let her win.
On her path to shame me,
She’s opened a window to my inspiration.
She’s unlocked a door hidden amongst the rabble.
My fingers are itching with the need to write.
Words buzzing around the inside of my mind,
Like a swarm of honeybees.
Creativity flowing through my body
And it’s a rush.
I’m a mad scientist working in the lab.
Me with no sleep, pencil and pad.
Dangerous.

If we could live forever,
I wouldn’t wait to tell you how much I love you.
I wouldn’t wait to kiss your soft lips.
I wouldn’t shy away from your blue eyes.

If we could live forever,
I would hold you in my arms and daydream about your smile.
I would caress your smooth cheek, savoring each moment.
I would run my fingers through your hair, taking in its heady scent.

If we could live forever,
I would lie on the moonlit beach with you,
Watching the waves crash at our feet.
I would tell you all of my hopes and dreams, not afraid that you would run away.
I would give myself to you as the stars sparkled in the night sky.
And we would live like tomorrow was never coming.

If we could live forever,
I would spend ever waking moment with you, never letting you go.
I would sing to you every night and write poetry about you every morning.

If we could live forever.
I would yours till the end of time.
Because for me, there is no one else.
If we could live forever.

-Kim V. Poetry